That Pointy Mountain in the Middle...
I know this is a repeat picture, but I took this picture myself over a year ago and that is the MOUNTAIN I am going to hike this weekend! I am So excited that I can't sleep. Literally it is nearly 2:30 am and I am still wide awake like I have had several cups of coffee....
Yep, that pointy one in the middle. We are camping somewhere near the trail head for the weekend [my bestfriends and meeeeee and boom of course!]
I simply cannot sleep. I was looking at some of the very few pictures online of the surrounding area and I am so excited. Then I saw some of these pictures I took from another mountain [we drove up it] and I am just tooooo excited. I feel like a kid at Christmas.
we made it!
We finally got the chance to do the nearly 5 mile hike.
It was wonderful! I stopped and watched a sparrow hawlk fly, two redtailed hawlks were flying and playing together, and we saw a deer that was bedded down in the oat field.
I am very confident that I can do the 10K now because I know it will not be as hard as what we did today! Next time I am going to take more food and water. I ran out of water on the way up the hill to go home. Not good! But we made it!
Now I have a good estimate on how long it will take us to hike Table Rock in a few weeks.... Wheee heee!
more motivation!
I received another dollar in the mail today :) How awesome. And she wrote a message on it too. I have decided that on Sunday Boom and I are going to walk around the loop. It goes to Scotts Mills and back. I guess you could say I was almost walking around the block except it is four miles. HA! That isn't the kicker :-O there are a lot of hills that are rough climbs.
I am going to hike Table Rock on July 29th. That is JUST two weeks + away so I should see if I am up to it :). I am very excited.
So, Sunday I am loading my pack with a gallon of water and some vittles and heading out to walk the loop.
for as he thinketh in his heart, so is he
Proverbs 23:7
That is amazing to me.
As I sit here with this huge list in front of me of things I need to accomplish in the next few hours it seems so daunting. So the same old tapes start playing in my head. You are not going to be able to get it all done. You will fail. You can't do that. And I feel the bile rising in my throat. My stomach starts to churn. I start to feel the anxiety rising. I feel my breathing change. I feel my heart quickening. Once again I attempt to defeat myself with my own thoughts. So I take these feelings and let them go. This list is not as bad as I think it is. I can do this.
I have my choices before me. Either succumb to the same old thinking or to move forward and choose to no longer think this way.
Plugging Right Along
I am finding that I am having a hard time eating enough food to meet my minimum calories. I spent a lot of time worrying about it this week and came to the decision that since I am truly not hungry then I must be okay, and not to worry about it. I got a surprise when I weighed in today :-) I have lost 6#. That is three weeks worth the first week. HEE! So, I go on from here, knowing that it is not unusual at all to lose a great deal of weight the first week on a food plan, but grateful [thank you Lord!] for the wonderful jump start.
I knew I was going to feel bogged down with all the blogging and keeping track of what I am eating online with the dial up connection, so I skipped blogging for a while. But here I am :) I did not forget you.
I am really excited to see what this week will bring. God is so good, He has taken away my want to overeat. I also found my contacts lol the case fell behind a table. So now I am wearing them all the time to see if I really want to wear them or just get the lenses replaced in my glasses. I think I will go for contacts.
I am seriously thinking about setting a date to climb Table Rock. I am thinking that the last weekend in July will be it. I am starting the Master Cleanse on Aug 1, but I think I will see about pushing it back because I will need to caffeine detox two or three days before that. It will all work out and if I need to start MC on the third or fourth of Aug that will be fine too. I just do not want to combine caffeine withdrawal and trying to fast all in the same thing. I have tried to cut down on caffeine but it is not working as well as I would like. At least I am down to two cups a day, so I should be happy. Maybe I will be down to one by then and it won't be too hard.
weeding does count!
I came back up the hill and found out that it was after 9 pm. I was down in the #4 field pulling canadian thistle for over 2 hours. Well I figured that it had to count for something, right? I just checked in with
"The President's Challenge" where I log in my activity, [and have the opportunity to win patches and the like-great motivation!] and found that weeding does
not count, but I figure I can add it under gardening and get my time in for today. Whee!
I would highly suggest that if you can/have the want to enter a 5k or another walk then you should do it. I was getting so tired towards the end of my weeding and I just looked back at my 5k in March and thought to myself "It is as if I am at the 2 mile mark. I am almost done, very tired, but if I just push past this spot I can make it all the way through." Well, I did :-). It is helping me develop not only a better work ethic, but giving me amazing stamina for someone my size.
today
Well I spent some time this morning crying. I just was so frustrated by everything yesterday and so tired. I am spending too much time online lining my food plan up... it is making me miss ediets.com where I could just put in the food and it would show each day as I made it. SparkPeople is good, just time consuming since I am on dial-up. I am going to quit keeping track of my food there because if I continue as is, I am going to get frustrated and overwhelmed. I am going to find somewhere else to keep track, but use SparkPeople to help me guage how many calories I need with my weight.
I felt like a crazy person this morning. I was so grumpy and then emotional. I was so overwhelmed with work and everything and then pressure from just plain being an adult and having so much riding on my actions.
Today I am good. Getting the hang of things.
Good news is that I have walked over 4 miles so far this week... in two days :) My time is slow-slow-slow and I rest a lot, but I don't care :) It isn't how fast I get there, it is that I do get there! And I will! By tonight I will have walked over 10K in three days. That is GOOD. This means that my goal is attainable!! I have until October 1 to be able to do it in one day.
Motivation for Today
The Nike ad that is below is from "What Women Want". I watched the movie a few weeks ago and when Mel Gibson said these words I started to cry because I missed the road so much. This is the reason why I walk. Granted I consider myself a social rebel and most of these things do not bother me, but it summed up for me. So if anyone wants to know why I am so into this, here ya go! Besides the endorphine rush is AWESOME and it feels sooooo good to burn off emotions that I normally do not know what to do with. I love to hear my heart pumping and hear my breath increasing and the fact that I can keep going instead of having to stop or worse, have to keep going beyond my point. I started to get into losing weight so I can do better... make more miles... hike long distances.... it is all because of the road.
You don't stand in front
of a mirror before a run...
and wonder what the road
will think of your outfit.
You don't have to listen to its
jokes and pretend they're funny.
It would not be easier to run
if you dressed sexier.
The road doesn't notice
if you're not Wearing lipstick.
It does not care
how old you are.
You do not feel
uncomfortable...
because you make more money
than the road.
And you can call on the road
whenever you feel like it,
whether its been a day...
or even a couple of hours
since your last date.
The only thing
the road cares about...
is that you pay it a visit
once in a while.
Nike.
No games.
Just sports.
Early Fireworks
Tonight, after 9:30, I took Boom and we went for a walk for over an hour. It is pretty hard walking for an hour here on the hill because I have to do a lot of back tracking and keeping an eye on the timer to make sure I get enough time in. I can't believe how long it has been since I have walked, how much I missed it, but most of all how little ground I lost! Praise God! And my hip was NOT bothering me. It bothers me all the time now. Boom has learned not to pull on me and she is heeling wonderfully.
The very best thing about the whole night was to the north east of where I was walking there was a lightning storm. It was far enough away that I could not hear the thunder, more over Estacada and Oregon City area. So, I was able to watch the "fireworks" as I walked. I made sure that walked a portion of Heinz road TWICE so I had a very good view and when I stopped to watch I would turn to see.
It sure feels good to be back in the game again!
Motivational Picture #1
A friend of mine sent this to me as "Monitary Mental Motivation"
Nobody has better friends than I do.
Everyday is a struggle but as long as I admit my weakness then I am strong in God.
I have managed to lose weight this week.
Part of the program I am on, it is suggested that I collect a motivational picture and a quote everyday, as well as journal.
I just need to put one foot in front of the other and allow myself the occasional Johnsonville Braut and beer or life just ain't worth living.
Today I am supposed to walk for an hour and do yoga. Whooo Weee do I get myself in over my head. If this is too much for me I can always change my plan.
BTW if anyone needs a food plan check out
SparklePeople.com It is FREE though I always recommend people use a "junk" email address for signing up for free sites. They have to make their money somehow! So I just use my yahoo addy and keep my others junk free if I can help it.
